Basically I'm Gay

Daniel Howell
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Let me tell you a queer little story about a boy named Dan.
Follow me online to see the rest of my tale as it unfolds in real time:
And subscribe to my channel! (lol)
Content warning: this video contains far too much strong language and discussions of general sexuality, discriminatory language, bullying and an attempt on my own life. Otherwise totally appropriate for education, instilling good values in young children and my grandma who I will expect a disappointed text from.
Special thanks to for production assistance.
Art by Hector aka
Handel - Messiah
Camille Saint-Saëns - Danse Macabre
Tchaikovsky - 1812 Overture
Chopin - Fantasie Impromptu
Schubert - Ave Maria
Additional Music by Kevin Macleod
Disclaimer - This video is just a starting point for me, what I felt was the bare minimum (ha) required for me to get this out there so I can move forward with my life, a mix of explanation, justification and opinion. It scratched the surface of several things I could have gone into more detail about, but the purpose of this was to be ..reasonably concise and above all entertaining. In the future, in the right places, I will surely talk much more about everything touched on in this video and more. It’s also likely that something will get misunderstood or misrepresented, perhaps from the way I phrased things or people assuming my thoughts on things that I didn’t specify. Also my story is just the truth of what happened to me and what I thought at certain points of time in my environment, good and bad - of course not my opinions today. So JUST to be clear my opinion on general sexual and gender identities are that everyone is valid and deserves equal rights and the freedom to exist. The only thing I don’t tolerate is intolerance. Cheers to an inevitable bright future, either because people become nice and the old people die or the sun explodes first lmao.
Some resources and charities for anyone who needs support or wants to learn more:


  1. Kirsten Mcfarlane
    Kirsten Mcfarlane
    37 dakika önce

    Im so confised . I swear 2 god that this used to be 42 mins not 45 !!!!

  2. Bonnie Davies
    Bonnie Davies
    Saatler önce

    The 13th of June is officially Dan Howell Day

  3. Meme Master
    Meme Master
    Saatler önce

    You’s a bitch

  4. Taleah
    2 saatler önce

    Thanks for the G note

  5. Juju
    3 saatler önce

    Haha okay but when are you bringing the sexy endscreen dance back? Nah I’m jk I love you a lot and accept you. But seriously though I miss the endscreen dance ;(

  6. Katt Murray-Todd
    Katt Murray-Todd
    3 saatler önce

    Happy you could do this!!! Love you so much and can’t wait to see where you go!!💞💞

  7. Alex Byron
    Alex Byron
    3 saatler önce

    jeez that clap at 7:00. This is amazing work Dan, and well done!

  8. Julianna J
    Julianna J
    4 saatler önce

    I’m still coming back to watch this..

  9. Erin Haughey
    Erin Haughey
    6 saatler önce

    I love this. Thank you x

  10. 8-bit Zoey
    8-bit Zoey
    8 saatler önce

    We're here for you Dan, through and through. You should feel comfortable with who you are.

  11. E Pittard
    E Pittard
    11 saatler önce

    emo phase is the best!!!!!! im still going through this phase and i LOVE IT!!

  12. Gudinichka Otp
    Gudinichka Otp
    12 saatler önce

    Don’t be afraid. We love you

  13. Natalie Klotzbeacher
    Natalie Klotzbeacher
    14 saatler önce

    How you bring light, humor, tell a story, and shine hope on people struggling all in one video

  14. Walchen -_-
    Walchen -_-
    16 saatler önce

    Phil, thank you. This is really relatable to me and I really appreciate you doing this.

    1. The Keel
      The Keel
      Saatler önce


  15. Emu Nebula
    Emu Nebula
    16 saatler önce

    Probably watched this like 30 times since he released this video. Yes im addicted

  16. Swirlcord
    18 saatler önce

    I’ve been going something very similar and honestly this video has helped sooooooo much

  17. Savannah Toms
    Savannah Toms
    19 saatler önce

    No one: ABSOLUTELY no one: Me: hmmm... I have to wake up early in the morning to undergo some torture that people like to call band camp. It's 11:27 at night. TIME TO WATCH A 45 MINUTE VIDEO!!!

  18. Jay B
    Jay B
    19 saatler önce

    "Im confused and sad and horny" i feel that man

  19. Arden McBride
    Arden McBride
    20 saatler önce

    I kept telling myself I'd watch this fully when it first cam eout and kept forgetting until now. But god this made me feel so guilty for being a huge phannie back in the day. To be fair I quit all that way back in 2014 when I realized shipping human beings is gross and messed up bc it does absolutely lead to the exact shit Dan mentioned. Overall this was such an amazing video and you have such a huge support behind you Dan!

  20. joao santos
    joao santos
    22 saatler önce

    Me 10:04

  21. ŽæùN ŁòVê
    ŽæùN ŁòVê
    Gün önce

    It’s OK HONEY! I love you and I’m always proud of you booboo

  22. blueh9
    Gün önce

    I am nowhere close age wise (older), but I relate so much. Many of the stuff you went through I did as well.

  23. Narssissolock
    Gün önce

    Yay Daniel! Way to go! Stay safe and be happy. You deserve it!

  24. im not a nerd
    im not a nerd
    Gün önce


  25. Mxstiecal_ X
    Mxstiecal_ X
    Gün önce

    *"I have big hands with very wide reach..."* **silence** *"...for playing piano, **-you fricking-** get your mind out of the gutter!!"* 43:44

  26. BlancRose2
    Gün önce

    9:37 Ava’s Demon theme comes on and that made me happy.

  27. 10OOXOO0 1
    10OOXOO0 1
    Gün önce

    Why does this video have dislikes?!?

  28. BOTO. / Bigger On The Outside.
    BOTO. / Bigger On The Outside.
    Gün önce

    is dan in the dark void again. *DAN GET OUT OF THERE*

  29. Dancing CumberCookie
    Dancing CumberCookie
    Gün önce

    I got my friend to try on a pair of heels and he didn’t take them off for an hour he loved them so much. I agree with him though, heels are fun!

  30. Flynn Murray
    Flynn Murray
    Gün önce

    Where was this video three years ago when I needed it most 😭. Love you Dan! So happy for you ❤️

  31. somepersonnamed sophie
    somepersonnamed sophie
    Gün önce

    I love that he made this video in a sequinned jacket, it really tied it all together

  32. Χρυσάνθη Β
    Χρυσάνθη Β
    Gün önce

    I LOVE YOU._

  33. Helen Yim
    Helen Yim
    Gün önce


  34. Bella Marietta
    Bella Marietta
    Gün önce

    Ily ♡

  35. Rikistrikiis
    Gün önce

    Dude everyone knew it

  36. Jake Bello
    Jake Bello
    Gün önce

    *A R E W E G O N N A F U C K*

  37. Queen Of the world
    Queen Of the world
    Gün önce

    Everyone comes out at their own pace and you are of course welcome to the community.❤️🧡💛💚💙💜🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈

  38. panduh boi
    panduh boi
    Gün önce

    8:36 *related on a spiritual level my guy*

  39. Theresa W
    Theresa W
    Gün önce

    The world is pretty messed up with how people can think and how they treat others... Am glad things are better for you now :)

  40. Brushes and Butterflies
    Brushes and Butterflies
    Gün önce

    The 45k people who disliked might need a hug 😬

  41. Kaitlyn Apel
    Kaitlyn Apel
    Gün önce

    This is the best motivational speech I’ve ever heard

  42. Just Saph
    Just Saph
    Gün önce

    11:09 isnt that felix in the victory song mv

  43. Destiny Dynamite
    Destiny Dynamite
    Gün önce


  44. Livier07Arteaga
    Gün önce

    This touches so many issues. I wish this video could be seen by everyone. I didnt realize how bad school really is until my daughter started 3rd grade.

  45. Maddie
    Gün önce

    You are soooo well spoken boi 👏

  46. Lessac
    Gün önce

    Thank you for pronouncing lmao as “luh-ma-ow” and not “elle-em-ayy-ohh.” My friends tease me about saying it the way you do, so it’s a relief to see that my prononciation is valid (and superior). Also: hell yea!!! live your truth🌟

    1. such trash
      such trash
      Gün önce

      Saying it as elle em ayy ohh is a crime against humanity,,,

  47. toxicsugarplum
    2 gün önce


  48. Fall Out! At my Green Chemical Piløts
    Fall Out! At my Green Chemical Piløts
    2 gün önce

    19:27 - 19:45 I’m intense sobbing, not only because of Dans attempt (but that made me cry for like 20 minutes so I had to pause the video) but because I’ve been in that situation multiple times

    1. Noah
      Gün önce

      And I’m only 12

    2. Noah
      Gün önce

      Fall Out! At my Green Chemical Piløts me too I have bad depression and it is bad

  49. TheCallousOne
    2 gün önce

    i love the intro so much

  50. Rainbow123
    2 gün önce

    I find myself coming back to watch this video again and again, thank you so much for making this!